Are we wondering why? Yes.

Hello family and friends,

This post is a hard one to write but we thought that we should share our news. As many of you know, we have been trying to have biological children for about two and a half years now. We’ve miscarried twice and then delivered and lost Sarah. Well two weeks ago, we found out that I was pregnant! We had been trying since February when we got the go ahead from our doctor. Well, Tuesday night, we miscarried again. We had a doctors appointment yesterday and I am ok. Thankfully, we have finally found a local infertility doctor that cares about our situation and is going to be running a ton of tests to help us find out what is going on.

Although this is certainly sad news, what does it have anything to do with our adoption journey ?!?! Well – very simply, we desperately want to be parents and know that with such a strong desire to raise children there must be a way !  When we had our first two miscarriages they were so traumatically difficult.  We felt 100% powerless and 100% hopeless with any thing that was given to us to control.  With the loss of Sarah, well we are still mourning for her but God’s grace gets us through each day. But now what a difference an adoption makes!  Are we still heart broken about this loss ?  Well yes, of course we are, but not without hope and not without a God provided joy of the road we are still on.  What a great gift adoption has become to us.  Without even having one of our children through adoption yet, we are already receiving from this process. In the mean time, our adoption is still going strong. We will be following through with the two adoptions no matter what goes on biologically and that has always been the plan. Adoption was always something we were going to do but now with all the issues we have had, it means more to us than ever.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers during this time.

Love, Tara & Whitney

PS. If we had a dollar for every time someone said “I admire your strength” or “Your faith is so strong”, well we wouldn’t need a store to help fund our adoptions. It is not us, it is God. Without his strength and grace we would not be able to get through all these hard times we are facing. Are we sad? Yes. Are we wondering why? Yes. But we are different people than we used to be because God is in our hearts. We know ALOT of people out there are struggling with things too and YOU can have this strength like we do. I encourage all of you reading this to thank God for the life you have right now and to ask Him into your heart. It’s not the miracle cure for getting rid of all your struggles but it helps you get through them with hope. I once was lost but now am found…was blind but now I see.

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2 thoughts on “Are we wondering why? Yes.

  1. Oh I am so sorry. It is terrible to lose a child at any age/gestation, and I can’t imagine what it would be like to experience that multiple times. I’m so grateful, though, that you are relying on God and sharing your lives so openly. What a gift. Thank you.

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